#3, never trust no-bo-dy

i been in this game for years, it made me an animal

there's rules to this shit, i wrote me a manual

a step-by-step booklet for you to get

yo game on track, not your wig pushed back

-biggie, 'ten crack commandments'

i'm reading rilke's 'letters to a young poet', and it's sort of similar to biggie's crack commandments. listening to biggie in brooklyn just feels right, and i'm learning the lessons of the streets.

i'm gonna be one tough cookie before long. people say i'm 'assertive' now... not sure if that cuts it on the streets. have to keep it 100% real and be aware.

awareness. i sit on the subways and the stories unfold in front of my eyes. today a man had his two sons and little baby daughter with him. presumably, he had just picked them up from their mother's, because he was cussing, wilin out..  dude had no problem just yelling at his bratty kids on a subway when there are people all over the place. baby mama drama.

it's weird how it's not okay to look in people's eyes, it can be construed to the point of being an invitation for a come-on...  it's strange because i like to look in people's eyes.. but dudes around here just be hollering like it's absolutely vital for you to know exactly what's on their mind. which is sex.

rilke, on sex:

'sex is difficult; yes. but those tasks that have been entrusted to us are difficult; almost everything serious is difficult; and everything is serious. if you just recognize this and manage, out of yourself, out of your own talent and nature, out of your own experience and childhood and strength, to achieve a wholly individual relation to sex (one that is not influenced by convention and custom), then you will no longer have to be afraid of losing yourself and becoming unworthy of your dearest possession.'

heavy. 

i found out who was knocking on my door... the census man. they slid a piece of paper under my door saying they want to have a census interview or something? no, thank you.

muhfuckers do not need to knock on my door.

i'm learning these streets. and i won't let 'em get the best of me. now, i just have to learn how to do this without becoming scarlett o'hara.